My Duromine Diary

[Foodaddict94]

Hi Everyone!
I have officially started duromine yesterday and to track my progress I've decided to write a post on this thread each day.
I'm making this thread partly so I am held accountable and I can look back at this experience, and also the fact that if I can help even just one person by writing my experience on here, then it'll definitely be worth it. And if nobody else reads it I don't mind either

About me:
-21 years old
-165 cm tall
-Current BMI: 31
-Heaviest weight: 89.2 kg in May
-Current weight: 87.5 kg
-Goal weight: 60 kg
-Ultimate goal weight: 58 kg

I've always had a pretty small frame for my age. That was until around 2013 when I got insanely addicted to junk foods (mcdonalds, kfc, other fast foods, chips, coke, chocolate, cake, you name it).
The number of the scales kept getting bigger and bigger (and so was my stomach).
Being so addicted to food has ruined the last 3 years for me. I've hidden away in my room, I don't hang out with my friends, I don't do anything other than work and EAT. I feel like I don't have a real life and that I'm existing and not living.

I would do ridiculous things just to get junk food. Like hiding food in my room, or cutting the lining of my hand bag and hiding junk food in there so that I won't be judged if anyone sees it, I would pay my housemates over $20 each time just to drive me to the closest shops (just down the street) so i could buy junk food, I would eat so much that I felt sick but I would keep eating more so I wasn't wasting it. Sometimes, I would feel so sick I'd put the remaining junk food in my bin and spray perfume over it all so I wouldn't eat it.
But believe it or not, I STILL ATE IT! I pulled the packet of mnms back out of the bin and wiped the perfume off each mnm with a tissue. one by one.

I've tried so many different things; joining gyms, hypnotherapy, motivational boards, buying clothes in the size I want to be, you name it I've tried it.
That was until I went to the doctors because I figure that I've gained almost 30 kilos in such a short period that I wanted to make sure that I was still functioning okay inside.
My doctor prescribed me duromine when she heard of my weightloss issues. I had never heard of duromine before, and after reading about all the side effects, i wasn't too sure if I wanted to use it because I had just started a new job and I wanted to make sure I was on top of my game while i was learning how to do it.

After some convincing from my friend, I decided to go on it. I was actually really excited to go on it because maybe this was it. Maybe this was finally the thing that's going to save me from my obesity hell.

 

[Foodaddict94]

DAY 1:
I've read so many stories about how a lot of people haven't been able to sleep well on duromine and that it could be because they've been taking the pill too late in the day.
So I woke up at 5am to take my duromine tablet and then went back to sleep. I woke up a few hours later and was disappointed to find that I was feeling pretty lethargic and I didn't have that so called "energy kick" that other people have described. I was relying on that extra energy to help me get to the gym.
I had a dry-ish mouth but other than that I didn't really get any other side effects. I wasn't agitated, I wasn't jittery.
I did feel sort of full-ish all day but I don't know if that's because I was still full eating so much junk food the days before.
I ate pretty healthily because I was determined to make myself think that the duromine is working, even if it wasn't.

 

[Foodaddict94]

DAY TWO:
87.0 KG
Slept like a baby last night. I didn't wake up even once except for waking up to my duromine 5am alarm.
I woke up feeling all foggy and lethargic again
Haven't exercised or anything today... I have no motivation to.
I still feel full. I don't know if that's the duromine working or if I'm having troubles with my digestive system (sorry ew haha).
I didn't do much today other than went to work and came home and I ate fine all day. but then I got home and I got bored.
It's not that I was craving junk food, it was more the fact that for the past 3 years eating junk food was my way to relax when I got home after work and it was always the thing I did when I got home. So when I went home and tried to occupy myself, I just couldn't handle not eating something to pass the time so I went out and bought a huge kfc meal and ate the lot even though I didn't even want it that bad.
I have no self control and I'm not sure if duromine is going to help me or not

 

[10kgtolose]

Reading your story makes me feel sad.
It reminds me of myself and what I've don't to myself in the past. I was what people would call a 'secret eater'. I would stay at home on my days off and drive to Maccas to get hotcakes, mcchicken meals, cheeseburgers, chips, mcflurry and THEN goto Coles and get a ridiculous amount of chocolate and a 4 pack of ice creams that I'd have to eat all of them because I didn't want to put them in the freezer because someone else would eat them lol. I would go for a walk on my lunch break just to eat my junk food alone and before going to my boyfriends or after I'd goto the servo to buy junk and eat because I didn't want him to see me eating it.
I'm just writing this message to tell you to STOP!
I know it's so hard. It took me many many times of failing, binging, putting on double the weight I lost and I'm now 2 weeks on duromine and have stuck to it. I had a hiccup over a week ago of eating abit of junk and usually that'd be the point where I'd give up but I promised myself I'd keep going. For me. Because I'm sick of being invited to things and having a mini panic attack inside because I wouldn't have anything nice to wear and because I'm ashamed of my body. I'm not obese but my belly is big and flabby.
The way I've kept to being healthy is by waking up and getting in my gym clothes. Even if I sit around for an hour doing something I know I'm still going to go and I have. I keep a food diary and wrote down everything I eat, every calorie and every workout I do and how I felt and my weight on weekly weigh ins. It keeps me occupied.
Watching you write that you ate KFC and didn't even want it hit home for me because I've done the same thing. Even when I could barely taste the chocolate I just would keep going.

So I'm just saying I'm here for you and although duromine is made out to be some magic pill it's not. You need to use self control and when you see results you'll want to stick to it more and more. Don't worry about your stuff up with KFC. Just worry about every day after this. If you find you're craving something so bad to the point you might binge, work a SMALL portion of it into your calories. And after a while you might choose to go without it because it may stall your weightloss.

You've got this okay.

 

[Deanna78]

Hi Foodaddict...

I hear you.. duromine doesn't seem to do a while lot ro curb my appetite either.. started om 30mg and asked to go to 40mg.. OMG it blocks my system.. have to take something to help with that.. but - yeah.. its not nice!! Youll find all sorts of feedback, advice, etc in this forum and others and just as we do in person.. we need to just let words that feel awful to read to just be forgotten....

I am struggling too.. have 20kg to lose but gee i find it tough.. we are all individuals too and the effects will surely differ for each of us... I have found I have had to 'learn' about how my body reacts with duromine and also of how i respond if i dont take it.. it does help in some degree for me.. as i do eat less.. but unlike many others - i still feel hunger and especially at night... when its wasy to over indulge and to store fat...

I feel I have pretty much wasted almost 2 months of duromine... but in reality- i have been learning about myself and how i react to this drug and how it reacts to me.. I will do better in my 3rd month, Im sure... but not because someone has told me to... but because I have spent the time figuring myself and duromine out...

Wishing you - and me lots of luck!!

 

[Mumo3girls]

Wow.. Wow!
All I can say is, I'm glad you let all that out and realised where your issues are, that's a huge step!

At times I could say duro isn't working.. But then I realise what my days were like and how I felt before.
I tried so hard to resist foods and just gave in, that sort of thing happens less now. I would go to the gym or for a walk and be convinced I had to eat something huge RIGHT NOW, and would over eat, and then continue to eat all day.. All meal sizes were too big, probably more so because I was so dehydrated I thought I needed the food..
So dry mouth has helped me to remember to drink.. And I've cut my portions probably in half, and cut out crap.. Not fully yet, I don't have that down pat yet... But it's coming..
All the best xx

 

[Foodaddict94]

@10kgtolose , @Deanna78 , @Mumo3girls thank you so much for your responses and your support.
It's so nice to have people that know what I'm going through and what I'm feeling. I really appreciate it.
I think I'm confused with whether or not duromine is working for me because I don't know if what I'm feeling is because of the duromine or because I have a health issue like IBS (sorry to be gross again, I haven't confirmed it with a doctor but it's starting to look that way and I hope it isn't IBS because it's soo hard to listen to my body when I'm bloated and constipated (ew) ).

 

[Foodaddict94]

DAY 3 & 4
I'm posting day 3 and 4 together because nothing super special happened in either of these days so they might as well be in the same post.
I woke up feeling bloated and sick again... which sucks because I want to be able to feel how my body is responding to the food I'm giving it.
I tried to weigh myself but ALL of my scales are broken... we have at least 3 in the house and every single scale is different, which is also frustrating because it's harder to track weight loss that way too. I think I'm 86.5 KG ? Which is good the numbers are going down even though I feel so heavy.
Duromine is making my skin break out BIG TIME. I hardly ever get pimples, I probably only get 1 pimple every few months or so. But in the last 3 days I can count at least 4 bad ones.
Both days I ate pretty healthy, I didn't decide to eat any bad food which is big for me because normal I NEED junk food of any kind to get through the day. I've learnt that duromine doesn't lose the weight for you (obviously) but it seems to rationalise my decisions when it comes to food more. Sure, the feeling of "Wanting" junk food and sugar is still there but I feel like duromine takes away the "need". Before I went on duromine I felt like I didn't even have an option to choose yes or no to junk food. it was always like "well duh of course you need it to survive", and now I feel like I have a real choice and can control it. and even though I don't get any energy bursts as of yet and I still get hungry, I feel like I am more in control...which is definitely worth the $110 I spent on it.
I exercised a little bit on day three but other than that I haven't done much because my stomach has been hurting a little bit.
After dinner tonight I started craving sugar again.. but I brushed my teeth and put myself before i had a chance to get any food.

I'm not sure about anybody else, but alot of the time when I have sugar or lolly cravings, it turns out that I'm actually super thirsty and have a dry mouth. So I make sure to drink plenty of water when it happens

 

[Mumo3girls]

The feelings you described about food is exactly how I feel..
And yep, duro isn't a fat shrinker, it won't do the work for you.. But it seems to be helping so that's a major win!!

 

[Deanna78]

I agree with Mumo3girls... for me though- it has been about figuring out what makes me feel what - and including how i feel about choices i make (or flat ot ignore).. I think duromine is helping me to see and finally acknowledge Consequences...

I am supposed to have my thyroid checked as I whacked on about 10kg last year in just 3 months- Oh good grief Deanna.... worked a short govt contract during that time and spent lots of time behind a desk, reporting and the rest celebrating 'something' with the team... stay on Deanna, they said.. we can extend your contract for a further 3 months... ummm - No Thanks...!!! Bye!!! Was a.food insight into that area of my career and the govt's role within the industry.. but longer -.seriously.. No Way!! Thyroid issues.. Maybe... Cake, tarts and coffee.. Probably!!..

Anyways - I am about to start my third pack of duromine.. and as I have spent time (and wasted money) on the first 2 months - I do intend stepping up the conscious effort.. I dont think my focus has been strong enough.. ha now there's an understatement... I KNOW my focus has been elsewhere... Ive had my thoughts on other things.. and clearly have not put myself first... how typical..

This IS what duromine has done for me... it has helped me to wake up to myself and see, feel and understand how choice can affect outcome...

 

[Mumo3girls]

I agree with Mumo3girls... for me though- it has been about figuring out what makes me feel what - and including how i feel about choices i make (or flat ot ignore).. I think duromine is helping me to see and finally acknowledge Consequences...

I am supposed to have my thyroid checked as I whacked on about 10kg last year in just 3 months- Oh good grief Deanna.... worked a short govt contract during that time and spent lots of time behind a desk, reporting and the rest celebrating 'something' with the team... stay on Deanna, they said.. we can extend your contract for a further 3 months... ummm - No Thanks...!!! Bye!!! Was a.food insight into that area of my career and the govt's role within the industry.. but longer -.seriously.. No Way!! Thyroid issues.. Maybe... Cake, tarts and coffee.. Probably!!..

Anyways - I am about to start my third pack of duromine.. and as I have spent time (and wasted money) on the first 2 months - I do intend stepping up the conscious effort.. I dont think my focus has been strong enough.. ha now there's an understatement... I KNOW my focus has been elsewhere... Ive had my thoughts on other things.. and clearly have not put myself first... how typical..

This IS what duromine has done for me... it has helped me to wake up to myself and see, feel and understand how choice can affect outcome...

I see that as Winning..
Gotta get the head in the right place before anything else will work!

 

[Joycee]

Hey girls,

I'm sorry to hear all the struggles that you've had.....I'm just wondering, and please correct me if I'm wrong....

I'm a big believer in "the obvious symptoms of (something) is not the cause of (something)".... I want to know, and I would like for you to ask yourself, what is the underlying exact cause for you to reach for food..... Think about this, this is not a question that you can answer quickly.....

For example: The weekend, I went away with a group of good friends, and in our food ration was a box of 16 mini donuts. When we got there, a friend got a call from her work and she immediately has to submit a paper (she's an academic), and the rest of us went out for a walk so she can concentrate. When we got back, and she has finished her work, I noticed half of the donuts were missing. I know she's a sweet tooth, but it's now obvious this bingeing is probably not an isolated incident....As a good friend, I asked her how come there's missing donuts, I made she talk...She said she feels like a fraud, she's stupid etc etc..... It's nothing new to me, I have heard it all before but what I didn't know was the bingeing as this is the first time we are in the same space....

One of my other friend has a alcohol problem and she use it to numb "something", she's has also hid alcohol, now she's going to AA and cut all grog.

Food is not so simple, food is what we need every day....

What I'm trying to say is, try to examine closely and ask yourself deep difficult questions about the repeated actions of reaching for food (then the subsequently actions of hiding it because you may fear judgement of losing self control?)....When you truly know the real reason(s), that's when you may have a good chance of maintaining what you may lose in the short term with Duromine.

I hope this helps....

Bless Xxox

 

[Foodaddict94]

I agree with Mumo3girls... for me though- it has been about figuring out what makes me feel what - and including how i feel about choices i make (or flat ot ignore).. I think duromine is helping me to see and finally acknowledge Consequences...

I am supposed to have my thyroid checked as I whacked on about 10kg last year in just 3 months- Oh good grief Deanna.... worked a short govt contract during that time and spent lots of time behind a desk, reporting and the rest celebrating 'something' with the team... stay on Deanna, they said.. we can extend your contract for a further 3 months... ummm - No Thanks...!!! Bye!!! Was a.food insight into that area of my career and the govt's role within the industry.. but longer -.seriously.. No Way!! Thyroid issues.. Maybe... Cake, tarts and coffee.. Probably!!..

Anyways - I am about to start my third pack of duromine.. and as I have spent time (and wasted money) on the first 2 months - I do intend stepping up the conscious effort.. I dont think my focus has been strong enough.. ha now there's an understatement... I KNOW my focus has been elsewhere... Ive had my thoughts on other things.. and clearly have not put myself first... how typical..

This IS what duromine has done for me... it has helped me to wake up to myself and see, feel and understand how choice can affect outcome...

Hi Deanna! I've just started working in an office job. It's soooo different to working in retail (what I was doing in my previous job). With retail, you'd be on your feet for over 5 hours a day and moving around a lot without even realising it. But I've found with an office job I am equally as exhausted but it's because it's my mind that's working hard all day. So when I get home I feel too tired to exercise :O I feel the same way, I am definitely determined to try and make the most of duromine because of how expensive it is

 

[Foodaddict94]

Hey girls,

I'm sorry to hear all the struggles that you've had.....I'm just wondering, and please correct me if I'm wrong....

I'm a big believer in "the obvious symptoms of (something) is not the cause of (something)".... I want to know, and I would like for you to ask yourself, what is the underlying exact cause for you to reach for food..... Think about this, this is not a question that you can answer quickly.....

For example: The weekend, I went away with a group of good friends, and in our food ration was a box of 16 mini donuts. When we got there, a friend got a call from her work and she immediately has to submit a paper (she's an academic), and the rest of us went out for a walk so she can concentrate. When we got back, and she has finished her work, I noticed half of the donuts were missing. I know she's a sweet tooth, but it's now obvious this bingeing is probably not an isolated incident....As a good friend, I asked her how come there's missing donuts, I made she talk...She said she feels like a fraud, she's stupid etc etc..... It's nothing new to me, I have heard it all before but what I didn't know was the bingeing as this is the first time we are in the same space....

One of my other friend has a alcohol problem and she use it to numb "something", she's has also hid alcohol, now she's going to AA and cut all grog.

Food is not so simple, food is what we need every day....

What I'm trying to say is, try to examine closely and ask yourself deep difficult questions about the repeated actions of reaching for food (then the subsequently actions of hiding it because you may fear judgement of losing self control?)....When you truly know the real reason(s), that's when you may have a good chance of maintaining what you may lose in the short term with Duromine.

I hope this helps....

Bless Xxox

Thanks Joyce, I've had a lot of trouble with figuring out why I have this problem. I notice it gets bad when I'm fine and then I SUDDENLY NEED it and I panic if I can't get my hand on any junk food. I don't have many friends or socialise much so when I get home from work, I don't have anyone special at home, I don't have any plans to look forward to, I don't have any hobbies (but when I do study or draw or something, I've always done that eating junk food at the same time). So I think the reason I eat so much bad food is because it's what break up my day from being average to "special". Because even though I don't feel like anything special is happening in my life, yummy junk food is what makes my day better. And I would get so excited to get home from work, put on my pyjamas, turn on my tv and eat all the junk food in the world until I sleep. I think that's the way I would relax :S

 

[Foodaddict94]

DAY 5 AND 6

Day 5 was a pretty good achievement for me because we had a family lunch/get together at our house. Every family lunch involves HEAPS of snacks like chips and dips and cheeses and soft drinks and lollies and soooo much food. Usually I'm eating the whole time during these occasions. When there's any extra chips left my family say "oh you'll eat it won't you?". I'm known as the one who eats all the food and goes back for seconds and thirds!
BUT
Day 5 was different!, I didn't even snack on a single chip!! I stuck to water the whole time and had salad and a bit of chicken. It wasn't even a fight with my inner self of choosing to eat healthily or me exercising my will-power.. it was just me not being interested in any of the food. As if it was just there and I didn't care! So awesome! I did spend the night trying to get rid of my bloody constipation though ! Sooo sick of feeling so sick.
I googled all sorts of ways and drank a disgusting drink of apple cidar vinegar, honey and water. It was so gross. It didn't seem to work and that made me feel so disappointed!

Day 6, I was still constipated but still have breakfast and went to work. The whole day my stomach was gurgling and groaning. I went home and did an awesome long poop!! I don;t know if it was the apple cidar vinegar or me drinking so much water yesterday but it worked! I feel a lot better now!! I weighed myself and I weigh 84.7kg!!! wow!!
I might be weighing myself a bit too much... how often does everyone else weigh themselves? i feel like a week is too long. I wouldn't be able to hold on for a week

 

[Mumo3girls]

DAY 5 AND 6

Day 5 was a pretty good achievement for me because we had a family lunch/get together at our house. Every family lunch involves HEAPS of snacks like chips and dips and cheeses and soft drinks and lollies and soooo much food. Usually I'm eating the whole time during these occasions. When there's any extra chips left my family say "oh you'll eat it won't you?". I'm known as the one who eats all the food and goes back for seconds and thirds!
BUT
Day 5 was different!, I didn't even snack on a single chip!! I stuck to water the whole time and had salad and a bit of chicken. It wasn't even a fight with my inner self of choosing to eat healthily or me exercising my will-power.. it was just me not being interested in any of the food. As if it was just there and I didn't care! So awesome! I did spend the night trying to get rid of my bloody constipation though ! Sooo sick of feeling so sick.
I googled all sorts of ways and drank a disgusting drink of apple cidar vinegar, honey and water. It was so gross. It didn't seem to work and that made me feel so disappointed!

Day 6, I was still constipated but still have breakfast and went to work. The whole day my stomach was gurgling and groaning. I went home and did an awesome long poop!! I don;t know if it was the apple cidar vinegar or me drinking so much water yesterday but it worked! I feel a lot better now!! I weighed myself and I weigh 84.7kg!!! wow!!
I might be weighing myself a bit too much... how often does everyone else weigh themselves? i feel like a week is too long. I wouldn't be able to hold on for a week

I can't help myself and I weigh every day.. But I only record it on a Friday..

 

[Deanna78]

I see that as Winning..
Gotta get the head in the right place before anything else will work!

Thanks Mumo3girls... been really hard to focus.. and easy to think.. why am i bothering.. you all make a huge difference to my day!.. thank you

 

[Foodaddict94]

DAY 7
I have officially been on duromine for 1 week.
I weighed in today at 84.4KG (the lowest I have been in ages). So that means in one week I have lost 3.1 KG in one week!
I have only had side effects like constipation, dry mouth and sometimes my heart beats a bit faster out of nowhere. I've been sleeping really well and I am actually a little jealous of the people that have gotten energy kicks of duromine.
I've had some pretty intense cravings for chocolate today so I bought a kit kat... which I won't be too hard on myself for because 2 weeks ago if i tasted a tiny bit of chocolate, I would let loose and buy EVERY junk food there is. But I am glad I stopped with just the kit kat.

I am interested to see what comes in the next week. I'm going to try and start exercising a bit in the next week because i didn't really exercise much this week.
Is the following weeks of duromine as effective as the first? Or will I always lose more in the first week than the rest?

 

[Mumo3girls]

DAY 7
I have officially been on duromine for 1 week.
I weighed in today at 84.4KG (the lowest I have been in ages). So that means in one week I have lost 3.1 KG in one week!
I have only had side effects like constipation, dry mouth and sometimes my heart beats a bit faster out of nowhere. I've been sleeping really well and I am actually a little jealous of the people that have gotten energy kicks of duromine.
I've had some pretty intense cravings for chocolate today so I bought a kit kat... which I won't be too hard on myself for because 2 weeks ago if i tasted a tiny bit of chocolate, I would let loose and buy EVERY junk food there is. But I am glad I stopped with just the kit kat.

I am interested to see what comes in the next week. I'm going to try and start exercising a bit in the next week because i didn't really exercise much this week.
Is the following weeks of duromine as effective as the first? Or will I always lose more in the first week than the rest?

Wow, that's amazing!
I haven't been so lucky to drop a huge number like that, I'm at 3kgs in 3.5weeks.. But from Experiance, usually the first week is always the biggest, because most of what you lose is fluid..
Good luck

 

[Madaselle]

Haha Mumo3girls
I feel your post so bad - I can so relate
It messy mix of congraulations/I hate you/I want that